Battle of the Bulge

So Thursday i began a quest to better track this business of wellness and weight. I think more than just losing weight or the physical aspect (having to try on 20 pairs of pants/jeans to find one that fits well) - wellness also involves the spirit, the soul and emotional well-being. It's not just cutting back on the Cheetos (my fave!) but also dealing with "why" we pig out or eat what we do. Watching Biggest Loser just reinforces that i need to get my "why" figured out.
My weight is a constant battle. Working 40 hours a week, trying to fit in school and taking care of a family does not leave the energy or time to take care of myself. And i FEEL it! From occasional high blood pressure, cholesterol to fatigue, the effects of my lifestyle are taking their toll. I know some of what i eat is from stress (chocolate brings me a little bit of peace during a stressful work day). Salty snacks AND chocolate hit the spot on those PMS days. And watching a  movie (even at home) always triggers the urge for popcorn (PopSecrets Movie Theater Butter - yum).
So as of last Thursday i'm committing to work my way toward a 75 lb. weight loss on 1200 calories a day.

I can tell you right now it's going to be a matter of being ok with starting over every day. As you can i haven't been able to stay at or near the mark yet.

Feb. 18 - 1868
Feb. 19 - 1386 (missed lunch, had an early dinner)
Feb. 20 - 2565 (weekend, no excuse i know - just harder)
Feb. 21 - 1875

Just getting into the habit of keeping track will also be a challenge but i think it will help me in not going to at least the 2000 mark and once i can get that exercise thing going that should help quite a bit. Working off what i eat.

I did get in a 20 minute walk on Saturday, although that was slow going as i was trying to train the dog as well on walking behavior.
I found a site that lets you track your food and calories for free. It will suggest the amount of calories you should consume daily based on activity and weight and give you a target date - mine is May 25, 2011.

Stay tuned.....